I’ve been thinking about which characteristic to choose for a while and I’ve finally settled on something which actually is one of my weaker skills. Before becoming ill I had a wicked temper, it’s something that I still very much have, but it’s also something that I’m learning to control through patience.
I was always a full charge ahead kind of person, once you’ve made the plan or had the thought you may as well get straight on and do it right? Why wait around? But chronic illness put a pretty sudden halt on that, suddenly I wasn’t able to just go and do something whenever the thought came to me. Suddenly I found myself having to wait for enough energy or enthusiasm or whatever is was that was lacking at the time.
Learning patience has (and will continue to) help me immensely in ways I could never have imagined. It’s made me more appreciative of what I have in this current moment, more empathetic and patient with others around me when they aren’t doing something the way or at the speed that I would like them to.
I still have a very long way to go but it’s something that I’m incredibly proud to say that chronic illness has helped me with. Even now, when I find myself being impatient, I’m aware that I’m doing it. I’m more able to take a step back and notice my reaction for what it is; irrational and unnecessary. And every time I catch myself acting this way, I’m one step further ahead in developing the characteristic that is patience.
What’s something unexpected that you’ve gained from chronic illness? When I start to think about it it’s actually hard to pick just one!
This post is Part 19 of 52 in the series – A Year of Growth.
The series is a celebration of the first anniversary of The Truth About M.E and is designed to help me grow through my illness throughout my second year of blogging. I look forward to having you along for the journey!